Ok, first  'proper' day done.  It was good, more of a 'this is what we will be doing day'.
I got to college early so that I could print off my homework, in the library I bumped into then sat next to one of the boys, who, it turns out, is actually 32!!!  Still think he's having me on.  Jeez! Now I know Im getting old!  So, I made the mistake of looking at his homework, then quickly adapted mine.  I had completely overlooked the word 'summarise' in the assignment.  I have never gotten my head around using 4 words when 40 will do just as well.

I bumped into Flowers :) and she is even nicer than I remember.

Ok, for the record... Please don't waste time torturing me, if you want my secrets, just ask.  I caved like a chocolate teacup in a microwave.  Flowers now knows all of my code names and is busily trying to think of one for me.  She tried Big Blonde and Bolshy, but I dont really want to give away my true identity!!

Flowers even refers to Newt by that name and not her real one as she bekieves that it is a good fit.  I sat at a bench for half an hour to kill time and was joined by trolly dolly.  At first I wasn't sure if I knew her, then I didn't much care.  She turns out to be a lovely person too! God, where are the freaks and nutters? Anyhoo, whilst chatting, Giggles came over for a sec and we realised that we are all in english together.  Fab.

In class, I felt myself getting grumpy, no reason whatsoever for this, but we had to do a 'getting to know you' excersise, that I hate!  However, I relaxed and found myself enjoying getting to know a little about the rest of the class. Duh! Thats the point Blondie!!!

We had to do an assessment which, tho it looks easy, was a little bit tricky.  We had to put the punctuation into a typed passage with none in it.  I was quite pleased with myself until I reread the instructions, then realised that it said there were 30 missing, I'd done 9! Back at it then.

We then had a couple of sentence structure tasks and finally to write a short (100 words....help!) piece at the end.  So, being under pressure - my spelling and punctuation went to hell in a handbasket.

At the coffee break I chose to stay in the class.  If I go out and chat, I will just want a coffee, and I have nada money.  Also, its nice to have a bit of quiet after the noise of 19 people (most of them under 25) in the class.  Being a solitary person, people noise is hard to handle sometimes.

There is a guy in the english class that looks just like a comedian I really like, but can never remember his name. Then there is a girl, we shall call her Nikki, (although that is the worst choice, because she is just soooo Nikki.  I mean, like who isss she?) I cant work out if its an act to get attention, or if she genuinley is that ditzy.  Time will tell.

Oh, I have a date.  Well, 2 actually.  One is the guy who bought my sat nav.  He got a bit chatty on the phone and invited me for a curry and a beer.  Yum.  I have to find him a hotel/motel locally so tht he can have a drink.  The other guy is from POF. He lives in Ipswich and on paper we should get on.  The POF guy is friday and the sat nav guy is to be arranged later in the week.

On the way home from college, I walked up the hill with Lady.  She and I had sat next to each other and chatted a bit.  I showed her how to get on the computers and she showed me that we recieve emails on it! Didnt know that!!  I thought that they emailed to your personal account, ie, hotmail.  Live and learn.

News update:  The POF guy text me and asked if I would like to go for a drink tonight.  I said yes. Got the serious wobbles now as I sit here choking on my own perfume worrying how I look.  I mean, for gods sake!  What do you wear on a date for a drink with a guy you've never met?

Luckily he phoned to make arrangements.  I gotta tell you, he has the sexiest voice.  I may be in trouble here.  Lets hope he's a bush pig and we dont get on.  But we did laughingly discuss wardrobe for the evening, he was as worried as me about what to wear.  We both agreed to play safe and go with jeans.  Easy for him, I still have to worry about cleavage/no cleavage, hair smooth/just shagged look, sexy top/mommy top.  I could go on but you, oh shoot.....footwear, are sneakers too casual?  No way am I wearing heels, I don't remember how tall he said he is.  (Remember the french situation?)  My new flats pinch and I dont want to be hobbling behind him like quasimodo, that tends to set the wrong tone. 

Ok, he just text me to say he's leaving and should be here in about half an hour.  God help me, I feel sick.  I cant remember the last time I was on a date.  Its all well and good chatting on line, but Im actually going to meet a real live person.  Please be ugly, please be ugly.

Ok, feeling slightly fluttery, I have my first proper lesson today, English Language and Literature at 1:30pm.
My new friend Flower has a friend on her facebook page who is also in my class today, so will introduce myself to her.  Speaking of Flower.....she is hell bent on figuring out who everyone is.  She got Zippy, Newt and I gave her herself, cos she had pretty much worked that out.  But no more!  I have to keep them confidential incase I piss them off!!  lol.
I had some bad news at chorus last night and have woken up feeling distracted and worried, I really dont want it to affect my day.  So, I have to try and shake it off.
We have a convention coming up in October, where all the Ladies Barbershop Chorus' compete.  Being a little unrealistic, I signed up to go.  My beautiful daddy paid half the cost when he was over for a holiday in June and I naeivly believed that I could raise the rest. Well, time is running out and I can't.  I sold the TV to pay my school fees and have nothing of value left. Being on benefits; one fortnightly payday covers bills and one fortnightly payday covers food. There is no room for anything else. So, with tail between my legs, I informed the chorus that I would have to cancel my place.  I hoped that I would get my money back.  At the end of the night, I was asked to step into the back room where I was told, all be it uncomfortably, that my place had been paid for so I still had to pay the rest of the cost. God! I could have cried.  So, my mind is roiling.
If I have to pay anyway, then I might as well go, how in hell Im going to pay for it is still a mystery.  I am very stressed about it and my psoriasis is going loopy on my scalp.  I woke up with a bloody pillow again.  Imagine what I would be like if I were not drugged up to the eyeballs with anti-depressants!!
The only thing I can think of is to skip my bills, again.  Aaaarrrggghhh!
So, I have to try and block that so that I can concentrate at college today.
I did get sung Happy Birthday to at chorus last night, and whilst standing there slightly embarassed but pleased, I realised that I have never had that sung to me before.  It was a special moment for me.
For those of you wondering how in hell you manage to last 45 years on this planet without hearing happy birthday sung to you.....my family were Jehovah's Witnesses when I was a child, then I spent my adult life in a relationship with a mysoginistic, self absorbed serial cheater who cared less for me than his nail clippings.
Do not feel that I am a 'poor me'.  I am not!  I am a happy, well adjusted woman with a fabulous future waiting for me, and I am taking the steps to keep me on track to get there. x

I have completed my first homework assignment, not too shabby!  Possibly not on the day I intended but still not the night before its due in.  Even though it is not part of our grade, I still wanted to give it 100%, start as I mean to go on etc.
I quite enjoyed it actually.  It was about University Fee's and I will post it here after we have handed them in.  Any and all feedback will be welcome, thats why Im at college....to learn.

Quick update on the kittens.............Aaaaaaah!

Seriously, they are fine, getting fat and wiggling about, climbing all over their mommy to fall asleep in unnatural positions.  The beige one is going to be trouble, I can tell.  It is the squealinest, fightenist kitten ever.  If it were a child, it would be a brat, but as they are my babies...they are adorable.  My nephew of 6 years old managed to get here in time to watch one of them being born last week.  Not too sure how he felt about that but he was certainly amused by the mess.

I regularly go on Plenty of Fish. Mostly because I like being fancied and it boosts my ego. However, I now have a right nut job messaging me who has a grump on just because I won't meet him.  I am 6 foot and he is 5 foot 8 inches.  I am not shallow but do have a bad back and those 4 inches are a killer to me!   Not only that, the guy just dosent seem wired up right. So, in the interests of being a rotten sod, Im pasting his messages on here so that you too can have a giggle.

This is the first after I said he was too short...

try something different ,
beauty is not related to tall, is related to harmony mind and body
as you can see on my photo I have a perfect shape
5.8-6 = 2
for 2 inch you refuse to be happy?
:o)
ok, not too bad
he is french by the way

second message after I said its 4 inches not 2

is 2 inch not 4

you wear heels fine I like it
a man as a woman is more than inch ....
what about sex, do is related to size?
what about conversation taller are more intelligent?
what about Friendship do the size of heart is related to the size
of our body?
what about intelligence to the brain are related to the color of
hair , of course not, only peoples programmed by society stereo
type believe that blond are not intelligent
blond are very intelligent like everybody when they are open to
new ideas....
do you fell more about with tall person, or more with a person
with who you have a good time out and in,
when you walk in street , do you choice a man for you, or a man
for the peoples who are looking you?
I am fit body and mind as you can see sweety
if you go more far than your limitation, and spend few time with
me out , or better be close and intimate you will never look man
like before....
:o)
Kiss you all over pretty Darling
Ami
xx

Is it just me, or is that a bit creepy?  I have no argument with his argument, of course inteligence, conversation and friendship should not be based on height or appearance, but this is a man who signs off saying kiss you all over??? 
Also, for a man who believes that height and appearance are immaterial, why does his profile have a pic of his body but no head?
Or, again, I could just be the worlds unkindest bitch!
Oh, and for any guys reading this, the answer to line 4? YES!

In the interests of being an unkind bitch.....just wait til I post some of the messages I get from overseas!
OMG!

Just a quick update: my ellie cat had her kittens last evening (on my sofa!).  She had 2 black, 2 ginger and one a beautiful beige colour.  So far they are the noisiest batch we have had, they squeak and squeal constantly if there isnt a teat in their mouth.  They also seem to be really active, a couple have already wriggled off the cats' throne, where they cried until mommy picked them up.  She had to finish her milk first of course.  Ellie cat is a great mom, she always has been (this is her 3rd litter).  She stays with them all the time and its so cute to see as she has her 'arms' around the whole bunch as they sleep.  I know that it is not the done thing, but ellie has never minded me handling her babies, I dont unless I have to, but she is really ok with it.  Last lot she actually plonked them on my bed and kept putting them back everytime I moved them.  Right smack bang centre of the bed too, almost as if she had measured it.  I tried sleeping without moving them but realised quite quickly that the cat was actually taking the p**s!

Oh my god!  I just had the best day ever at college.  The class was full of really nice people, I dont think there is a single one that I wont get on with.  I've already made a couple of friends, arranged a couple of nights out and may even get some financial assistance with my books.  I told the class that I am doing a blog, but that I wouldnt use anybodys name.  Well, I wouldnt want to be written about by some random crazy lady, would you?
So, I've been thinking about what I can call people.......here goes.....Well, I made quick friends with zippy and sat next to her, we chatted heaps and got on really well, I spotted pretty one and we talked a bit, she is so sweet, extremely pretty and seems very gentle and grounded, pretty two is a sweetheart, really friendly and seems like she probaly attends church, apples is a hunny, gotta be careful what I say about him, but I did explain that my flirting; whilst possibly embarrasing for him, is completely harmless, ok, giggles seems like he's going to be great fun although I didnt get to talk to him as much, mmm, frenchy (who isnt french, just looks like she should be) is very quiet and reserved, but I believe will be a lot more open as she settles in,  flower is going to be my new best friend, I just love her to bits already, she is normal, harrassed, dedicated, and open...my kinda gal, one woman; I really want to call mamma but it could be misconstrued, so I will call her hue, she didnt seem to mix very much, possibly because she is shy but more likely because of the percieved age gap.  Lady seems like a lovely woman but there dosent appear to be anyone that she would naturally gravitate toward, I like her a lot, so will make sure that she dosent feel isolated.  Newt is really nice too, I wasnt sure when I was just watching her, but having chatted, she is also going to be a great friend, the fact that she lives near zippy and myself is a huge plus.  There are heaps more people on the course, but these are the guys that stuck out to me today.  It all seems a little sichophantic but they really are a great bunch.  A quick word on the numeracy tutor, even tho she is painfully young, I really like the way she holds herself and takes control of the class, she seems aware of the fact that many are older than her but she still has the skills and balance to keep the class together. I look forward to her lessons. oddly!

Its 7:30am, wednesday morning.  I woke up before the alarm went off at 6:30, was up, scrubbed, dressed and cuppa tea'd with a tingly excited buzz.  Now I have half an hour to kill.  I used to think I couldnt "wake up" when I got up in the mornings, but since the TV went, that dosent seem to be the case.  Hmmm!
Ok, what to wear, what to wear?  First day, gotta set the right tone, so...what to wear?  I have gone with the classic jeans, white shirt with splayed cuffs and black waistcoat.  Kind of a grown up studenty look.  Will wear sneakers but not sure about a coat.  I checked the Gardeners World Weather site (the absolutley most accurate!!) and it said possible drizzle later. That didnt really help.  I walk everywhere and have a pretty bad back problem, so need to keep surplus weight to a minimum.  I dont want to be carrying a coat if it turns out warm.  The site said 20degrees, but I dont really understand that in relation to my body temp.  Plus, my medication makes me warmer than usual.  Ok, will take the coat.  Fingers crossed I need it. Ha!
Can you tell that Im nervous?  Im gabbling!
I have Temple at 7, and classes finish at 3 today, so may spend time in the library rather than walk home then back to town.  Hopefully we will get some homework, so that will give me something to do.  If not, I do have a book to read.
I have a packed lunch, vegetablke rice with mexican infused quorn pieces and a couple of yogurts.  I have a bottle of pepsi but in future will try and stick to water.  I really need to tackle my weight problem and today is as good a day as any to start.
Ok, Im going to get my sneakers on and Im off.  Yes, I may well pass mcDonalds for an egg muffin, after all, I'm fat because I have no willpower!!!
Chat later.
Happy New Year to my Jewish Friends. xx

Its eleven am on Tuesday, "why are you at home?" I hear you cry!  I do have excellent hearing!! :)
Well, dumbo here finally found her timetable and tho yes school starts this week, its only on Wednesday, a kind of familiarisation day.  Luckily I promised myself to be honest on here, or I could end up looking like an organised and intelligent woman!
So, pyjama day it is then. he he he.
Day 4 with no TV. I gotta tell you, I havent missed it at all.  I dont know if this will be a direct result of not having a TV in the house but.... I am so creative now, have written poetry, read books, made cakes, rearranged my home, visited people with cakes as gifts (Icant eat them all, Im fat enough),  baked cakes for chorus, slept well, woken on the alarm feeling refreshed...NEVER done that before, still find myself pottering about at bed time when I thought Id be pulling my hair out. Its been great, ok so tonight will be the tester, I simply love True Blood and now wont be able to watch it.  I cant play dvd's on my laptop either, don't know why.  Anyhoo, we shall see.  I will probably get the books out of the library and read them instead.
My Ellie Cat is still hugely pregnant, she looks like a matchstick figure that has swallowed a football. Poor baby.  She just huffs and puffs, flops down and hisses at Suki Puss, with the occasional swipe at her when she can summon the energy.  I can feel her babies moving around in her stomach, when she lets me....grumpy bugger!
Been thinking a bit about putting some of my poetry on here.  Its a very personal enterprise. I dont usually let people read my stuff unless it was written for them, and then its usually more in the way of a ditty.  If I can figure how to do it, I may just do so.
Have a fab day.